Dream of You

oh how sweet those words of yours
that offers promises so empty but not

come here and let me kiss you
I’ll hold you tight and dream with you

come to me let’s dance tonight
let me suffice your fondness with a hug so tight…

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Nais Ko

Habang nakupo sa aking opisina, ako’y napatitig sa bawat pag-ugoy ng mga sanga ng kahoy na umaayon sa hampas ng hangin. Isang karaniwang tanawin na pinganda ng bughaw ng langit sa kalagitnaan ng tag-araw. Tila isang larawan na kung mamarapatin ay nais kung ikwadro para muling mapagmasdan. Kaaya-aya. Maaliwalas. Nakakawala ng pagod. Napag-isip isip ko tuloy ng ang ating buhay ay tila isang serye ng mga larawan na pinag-ugnay unay. Bahagi na ng kasaysayan. Naluluma, napag-iiwanan pero ang sarap balik balikan. Kung maaari lamang na patigilin ang panahon kahit sandali man lang para langhapin ang sarap ng mga tawanan at kulitan ay aking hihilingin. Mga panahong kailangan kong matutong tumakbo ng mabilis para di mahabol ng mga nangungutong. Mga panahong kailangan kung gimising ng maaga para hindi mahuli sa eskwela. Mga panahong halos ang baon ko sa buong linggo ay itlog na iniba-iba lang ng pagluto ng aking ina – nilaga sa lunes, “scrambled sa martes, hinaluan ng ampalaya sa miyerkoles, “sunny side up” sa huwebes at nilagyan ng kamatis sa biyernes. O, hindi ka pa ba mababato dun? Pero dun ko nalaman kung pa’no mamuhay at magbigay halaga sa pinaghirapan. Mga panahong una akong umibig – ang saya ng ligawan at paggawa ng mga sulat pagmamahal. Kamusta na kaya siya? Baka may asawa na ngayon

Tulad ng isang pelikula, may mga bahagi sa ating buhay na kailangan nating tanggalin – hindi sa nais nating kalimutan, kundi dahil sa nais lamang nating mapaganda at maisa-ayos ang ating buhay sa pamamagitan ng mga aral na dulot nito. Di ito gaganda kung hindi dadaan sa masusing mga kamay ng editor. Mapanuring mga mata ng direktor. Kikilatisin at bubusisiin ng mga kritiko at manunuod. Aalamin kung makakapagbigay-aral ba sa ibang tao or isa lamang itong pelikulang walang kabuluhan at madaling malimutan.

Sa bawat paglipas ng panahon, ang bawat taon ay maituturing nating isang kabanata sa ating buhay. At ang bawat yugto ay may kanya-kanyang tema. Ang mahalaga ay kung nagampanan ba natin ang ating bahagi bilang pangunahing tauhan sa kwento. Naipakita ba natin sa bawat larawan – saya man o kalungkutan, pagdiriwang o pighati – na di lamang ito kanais-nais tingnan kung hindi makabuluhan din.

Sabi nila, malalaman mo raw kung anung klaseng tao ka at kung gaano kahalaga ang naging kontibusyon mo sa kapwa at sa kumunidad sa dami ng tao na nakikiramay at nakikipaglibing. Sa pagtatapos kaya ng kwento ng aking buhay, may mahabang prosisyon ng nakikiramay at nakikipaglibing ba akong makikita?

Anu man ang kahihinatnan sa huli, nais kong makita nila sa aking larawan, sa ibabaw man ng aking kabaong o nakasabit sa dingding, na ang buhay ko’y isang talambuhay na makabuluhang basahin at ulit-ulitin. Di man ito maisapelikula o magawan ng nobela.

I tried… :-)

my co-teacher asked me to design a cover for our souvenir program of our graduation this year… so here’s my try of it though not yet final as the Chinese characters are not yet included…

front cover… not yet well refined.. 😦

my alternate design… though my boss prefer the first one as it is formal… spent hours for this hahaha…

here’s how the back would look like without the Chinese characters yet…

basically this is just a draft… not yet final… any suggestions and advice as it is my first time to use Adobe… 🙂

Jabez

my child, my child
my beautiful Jabez
years have torn you apart from the rest
I’ve seen you come
I saw you leave
you took a stand
and live not in defeat

yet why those tears?
why do you fear?
you have conquered the world
and have made it clear
that you live to love
and take away  fears.

they tore your heart
they ripped you clean
but you stand in darkness
and stitched those broken wings
came out of the open
and shone your light again

my child, my child
my beautiful Jabez
take comfort from your family and friends
they give you love
they give you peace
they share your sympathies
and all that you need.

fear not my child
and dry those tears
close those tired eyes
and dream again
let your sunshine
flow from within.

my child, my child
my beautiful Jabez
you are beautiful and apart from the rest.

For the Love of Spanish

On my way to the airport, I overheard a mother-daughter conversation behind me in the van. They were speaking in mix languages – local dialect, English but mostly Spanish. My ears just couldn’t resist listening to their conversation in Spanish trying to understand what they’re talking about – which most of it I understand.

Their conversation made me smile. “I really have to pursue formal education of the Spanish language!” I said to myself. I used to listen to Spanish songs; studied idiot’s guide to Spanish and some interactive CD’s, but my knowledge is not enough. I can compose sentences and paragraphs not without grammatical error. How can I go and live in my dream place when in the first place I don’t know how to speak the language? Haha. So, I promise myself to take Spanish language this summer.

I want to live in Barcelona. I don’t know but this Spanish thing has some connection deep in me that I wanted so much to be in that place. I think my soulmate lives there that is why I am not married yet. Hahaha. Or maybe because of my past (I’m not talking about reincarnation hehe).Of course, that includes the most romantic language (at least for me) and the arrogant people. Haha.  A foreign exchange student of mine from Colombia once said, it’s better to live in Latin American countries than in Spain. She said they are aristocrats, arrogant and proud. They feel that they are a superior race. Well, I can’t blame her. There is so much in the history of the Spanish people who made them what they are now.

So here’s my resolution:

  1. Take formal Spanish education this summer.
  2. Study religiously the Spanish books I bought. (that is if I have enough time)
  3. Practice speaking and writing in Spanish. And,
  4. Establish connection with online Spanish-speaking friends.

Hopefully, this year I can already speak Spanish well.

Any other possible suggestions?

Remembering the 90s: Values on Screen

Taking advantage of my nostalgic mood, I resume my journey down memory lane. Do you still remember the movies and television shows you watched? I do. I was studying in a public high school then back in Cainta, Rizal and my class is only half day. Starts at 6:00 am and ends at 12:40pm. I usually am in a hurry after class to either go to the gym and practice volleyball, go to a nearby computer station and play X-Men or Tekken – back then its graphics weren’t as refined as the latest version – or to go home and watch my favorite shows.

I remember back in high school after our final exam we went to Sta. Lucia East Grand Mall and stand by at the entrance waiting for the mall to open. It was an hour of waiting just to be the first in line to watch “Titanic”. Entrance to the cinema then was 70 pesos when it would be 25 pesos here in Bacolod for movies like that.

The 90s were also the height of Mexican/Spanish telenovelas. I would catch up “Lazos de Amor” when I arrive home – Thalia wasn’t famous then and her telenovela at RPN 9 was “Quincenera” together with Lucero, the star of Lazos de Amor. It was only later when everybody got crazy over “Marimar” that the producer invited her to have a concert in Manila. At 4:30 in the afternoon my friends and I were already in front of the TV set watching Claudine Barreto, Christine Hermosa, Paolo Contis and the rest of the young stars now crack their jokes at “4:30 na! And TV na!” show. This was replaced later by the Filipino version of “Dawson’s Creek”, Tabing Ilog. I would go home early in the evening to watch “Superman” where Dean Cane and Teri Tatcher were the stars then, “Tales from the Crypt” and “Are You Afraid of the Dark?”. The week wouldn’t be complete if I fail to watch “Bubble Gang”. Back then the show was wholesome. I would laugh my heart out at the MTV (music tagalog version) or MEV (music english version) of the current chart hits and the funny side of the latest commercials or watch Rica Peralejo and the gang in T.G.I.F. (Thank God it’s Friday).

Who can forget the Baywatch? Everybody drools at the lifeguard’s Pamela Anderson, David Hasslehoff and the rest of the cast parading in bikini and trunks at the beach. Or maybe laugh with F.R.I.E.N.D.S., joined Calixta Flockhart in her cases as Ally McBeal, share sentiments with the college life of the people of Melrose Place and Beverly Hills 90210 or be shocked by the cases in the X-files. I will not forget the Power Rangers when I would shout “It’s morphin time! Blue 3! Sabertooth Tiger! (haha) or Mask Rider Black, Dragonball Z, Bioman and Ultraman – watching them now would make me laugh at how “bahul” the graphics are but back then it was so awesome!

These were great shows that taught me some good values. Right now, movies and tv shows are filled with great graphics and special effects of less value while anime and manga and on-line games corrupted the minds of the young. These shows how society degenerated from the 90s to present. I guess there can never be any decade better than the 90s! I’m proud I’m a 90s child! Haha.